Sunday, 15 March 2015

Personal Style... I'm Still Figuring It Out



I'm getting frustrated because I feel like I'm talking and no one is listening and I'm just existing in a space where so many other people are existing. Is anyone out there? Style are you out there? Maybe it's better I have no specific reader or audience and that I'm not a proper fashion blog. I don't want to be a brand and exist in the space between company and individual. I'm wanting to exist as a soul that cannot be contained and put in a little box. Of course, I speak about this crisis in terms of style. I'm comfortable in my friendships and academic life, but my style life is suffering.

The other day I watched a video on Youtube about personal style by Vogue and I realised that I have no style.  It made me feel sad, and disappointed with myself. I just wear clothes. And sometimes I feel uncomfortable, and can't wait to get home and change into my off-duty clothes (jeans, a shirt and trainers). Maybe my style are the clothes I feel comfortable in? But... They're not exciting or vibrant or unusual. So maybe I have no style. I'm a chameleon. That's it! I'm a chameleon. Each day I think about where I'm going, what I'm doing that day and select what I want to dress like - how do I feel? And I express how I feel on the outside, but unlike a chameleon I contrast my environment. Maybe I'm a inverted chameleon.

Alexa Chung and two other very stylish ladies were discussing what style was, and apparently (according to them) you can't be uncomfortable and stylish. And I agree, but I think that you can be uncomfortable at first when trying to find your style. I felt uncomfortable wearing lolita fashion at first, but I soon learnt to love it, and I used to really look forward to Saturdays when I could go out to town dolled up in Angelic Pretty and bows and pink.

I guess I'm, as Tavi Gevinson would say, still figuring it out. 

After all, I'm only nineteen and I have the rest of my life to figure out who I am and how I want to dress, so if you're in the same situation and having a bit of a meltdown like me, try not to worry. The night is young, we have plenty of time.

2 comments:

  1. you do have an audience! it always feels like that at times. you just have to keep doing you and everything will work out :)

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  2. you have your own style and its very original, nobody can't be like you, because of you're unique and that's what it makes you special, sure you know more about fashion than other people that think they're specialist in this...Fashion is not an "exact science", everybody as got their own vision...As you, i've changed my style so many times but it's fine, because fashion is try new things, innovate and over all, be different!
    don't be stressed for that, you have such a cool style, and thats the reason why i love your blog:)

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